just been ignore

hurm......nda lma blh jdi sewel gni ow...btul2 mnyeksakan...smpi hti u kan....mgkn psal u byk kja mo bt that's why la u blh bt gni sma me...btul2 bt me nda wujud dlm hdup u kan...:'( u smkin hampir mcm dia...walau msh byk beza..u mau tau apa yg sma???U MAKE ME CRY INSIDE...U KILL ME SILENTLY...knp???ini ka yg u mau bt?me ada bt slh sma u ka smpi u bgi pmbalasan gni sma me...sblm  ni me ada bt salah besar sma u ka??me ada TIPU u ka??me ada KHIANAT u ka??just like what she have done to u.....nda sanggup me gni...

is this the ending???

me smkin tdk fhm situasi ni..i'm being my self dear...but if this is ur decision i just can say thanks a lot dear..dri u bwa me kuar dri satu kesedihan and right now u sndri yg bt me sedih..janji u mo jaga me..tp...ntah la mls dah me mo kasi brt kpla me..me tau me susah mo hdup tnpa u..tp me cuba la jgk..tggu smpi u yg cari me sndri..bkn u teda krdt jgn la tpu bab me yg.....me syg u...me kecewa kena bt gni :(( me hrp bndi ni msh blh dperbaiki... tu pun klu u mau..klu u nda mau tpulang u la..me kasi biar ja even me ttp fikir..me tau me syg u..n me tau blh ka tdk me tnpa u...hurm..it was a bad day 4 me..

:'(

me nda tau pa slh me u bt gni...u tau perangai me..bla me ckp OK JA ok la tu...mmg me sakit tp mls me mo ckp sma u bab u just bz ma kja u..mgkn bru skang u perasan..u mkin jarang tnya sal me..hri2 bla call me ja tnya sal u..mgkn tu la u nda tau sal me...biar la..me sakit pun me kasi ok ja..tp np bha u mrh2 sma me? :'(

believe my HEART..

hurm.. :( mls tul me mo ckp bha..hri2 me tanggung bnda yg sma syg...since me smpi cni just ada la a few day yg me nda rsa gni..but for this whole week mmg ini ja yg me rsa..teda bnda lain..tp me sbar bab me syg sma u.. me kali kan suka bt mslh..me cba cri bnda lain spya me nda merengek ja sma u bha..tu org kwn ja mmg la me gtau u skandal but u know what inside my heart???tu org teda pa2 bha..u ja ni...me tau jgk me kasi hilang mood u..sorry la..teda pun niat me gtu..just jgn mula fkir yg me sma ngan MS.H k..me tau gak sal dia BOSAN la dia pi cri org lain kan??tp org lain tu darah daging u sndri...but me cri org lain tu kwn me..n me knl dia..just 4 fun..u tiada msa tuk me jgk..dia just tman waktu sunyi me n dia tau me ada u..me hrp u blh jdi kwn sma dia syg..me love u..

PENGGANTI @ PART TIME...JUST WHAT I WANT

dear..u know what happen...lately smkin rmi yg cari me..why???i don't know why the are begging for some love....but me always refuse it..bab me tau ad org yg syg me n ndakan hancurkn hati me mcm yg dorg akn bt dan sdh bt...some of them is my an EX..some of them my admirer and some of them a newer...and some of them is my own friend..even there know i already have u (my friend) but they still persuade me be with them..but as i have told u that i'm not ready yet to accept anyone accept u..n i'm not ready to be hurt by them (guys).... when u said u were jealous..u r worried that 1 of them will take ur place...its not the time dear....i do not need a alternate or part time lover dear..i just want be ur side..always there when u need me..always be at ur side to hug u when u cold, wipe ur tears when u cry, massage u when u tired, spoil u when u want to sleep, hugging u when u  woke from sleep at midnight, be awake when u sick..everything i have done for u n with u dear..i miss it very much..walaupun hanya dlm msa bbrpa bln...i will NEVER erase it even u hurt me dear..i really miss u dear...i can't stop the feelings how much i miss n love u...i just want be at ur side right now cause i know how much u need me to inspired u..to give support with u...i really want be with u right know..klu la jarak kita msh sperti dlu..just 45 minutes dear...u will meet me everyday like u have done before this..even at midnight u will come to fetch me up..i miss that moment dear..driving at ur side..hurm..nagging on u n been teased  by u really feel LONELY right know...hope u will come at fetch me right now even that is the impossible wish i ever do..hurm..u r so BUZY...

M.I.G.R.A.I.N

mkin hri makin truk sakit kpla aq ni...mo ckp aq nda cukup tdu aq pun nda tau la..tp mmg aq nda ckup tdu pun..tp bla aq ckup tdu pun sma jgk...mkin tmbh2 sakit kpla aq...klu me ngadu sma u...msti u mrh sma me...baik me nda gtau u...tp kpla ni btul2 nda than ni...me mls mo mkn ubt...sdg ubt tmbh drh me pun me nda mo mkn...biar la syg...tp skang ni mcm me mo hantak2 dah kpala me ni...sakit tul..tp demi u me on call jgk...bab me tau u rndu sma me..n me pun rsa bnda yg sma..tp me diam ja..for the whole next week u stay hotel..mkin teda la msa u tuk me...nda pa la...u mmg pntgkn kja...everyday me dgr sal patner u ja...nda pa la..u syg la sma kja u..and u mcm mo buang kenangan kita spya u nda rindu ngan me..nda pa la..yg pntg u nda sedih2 k mcm me ni..menanggung sakit, menanggung rindu, mnanggung syg..mcm2 lg d fkir ni... :'(

changing...

np u nda mo offday??u kata teda teman..u offday tdk perlu ada tman jgk klu u manfaatkan msa yg ada tu...tu bgn pling awl pun jam9..pastu u pi bfast,mandi, cuci kain, kemas blik u...sdah tgh hri...u lunch...then u rhat...tdknya u bosan tu..bdn u pnat bha..u nda kesian ka ngan bdn u tu..dah min tulang me tgk..klu me dkt sma u nda u jdi gni ni...u ckp u akn bosan...np u nda blh call me ka sdah??ka u nda sudi sdah mo bckp sma me ni.. me bkn tunggul kayu bha..pndi jgk me bckp sma u kan...bnda PALING pelik hri ni..u mrh me tiada sms u...knp u mrh??and tba2 u tnya me ada org lain ka..and u ckp "klu nda syg sdh ckp bha" me mo tnya u..me yg nda syg u or u yg nda syg me..u ada org lain sdah ka???me pelik la ngan u...me sms pun u nda bls bab u bz...baik me nda pyh sms bab me lgsg nda ganggu u...me just mo u happy, bkn mo bt u sdih2...bkn mo bt u tmbh tension lg sma perangai me..biar la..apa pun me bt...selagi me nda kasi luka hati u biar ja la..me diam tndanya me nda mo ganggu u..me than ja suma yg me rsa..bab bla me ckp msti jdi slh fhm then gaduh me pnat bha mo gaduh2 pa suma ni...sakit jgk tu hti nnti...

ada makna ka?

gila pnya lewat aq bgn kan dia...smpi aq teriak dia spya bgn...huhuuhu...sorry syg...but its too late..almost 6:00 am....hurm..sok dia offday...tp ada mkna ka sma aq???sma jgk tu kali...u akn bz ngan rmh and pasti u lewat bgn bab for this whole week u dah kja keras...msti u akn rht...nda pa la...biar la sma ja...u kja or offday teda bz nya pda me..bkn u dtg cni jmpa me pun...me rindu ngan u..tp msa n jarak mjdi halangan kita..its ok..me sdah mula mbiasakan diri me...sunyi log in fb ngan blog n update dua2....huuhuhu..buka game n main game...biarkan msa blalu ngan bgtu ja..spya nda rsa ketiadaan u...buang hp jauh2,....nda pegang hp spya nda sdar yg u teda hbgi me pun...nda pa la..me bljr fahami suma ni..me hrp u biarkan ja la me gni..jgn la dbhas bla kita on call bab me tetap akn ckp OK JA...dan itu akn jdi pnca kita gaduh...biarkan ja...asl u dgr me ktwa ngn u OK LA TU...jgn la mo fkir pa yg me update ni..nda mo gaduh2 sma u lg...k love u syg....

i like to have it...

i would like to have this....but me mo u yg pilih tuk me..cause u know me manja n me paling nda pndi memilih bnda2 gni...me lma dah mo beli bnda ni tp bila me mo beli me teringt bla u ckp MS.H suka pki bnda ni...me jdi bnci...bab me nda mo sma cam dia...n me nda mo u di bayangi sma byg2 dia..ntah la np..bab u tau jgk pa dia dah bt sma u..camna rsanya sakit tu kan...so mmg me nda mo la...tp me suka mo pki bnda ni...mcm2 design ada...comel lg me tgk hehehe....me tggu sma u bru beli kali...or me suh la spa2 jd tukang pilih tuk me tu pun klu me ada mood mo bli la...tdi kita calling..today i trying to be nice with u for a whole day and i made it..yeah...even waktu calling i trying to be nice with u..tdak bwa u gaduh2...biar la pa pun yg me rsa..asal u happy+bahagia me ok ja tu...^____^ this smile is 4 u dear even deeply inside it was :'(( its ok dear...tuk lht u bhagia me sggp bt pa ja...me nda mo u sakit lg...i TRYING harder dear...harder and harder even it is the hardest for me...but for ur happiness its ok...miss u a lot....

SIAPA????

wei!!!!!!!spa yg hack fb aq???pesal aq xleh nak bka...YA ALLAH....xrmi yg tau password and email aq..pa lg pas email aq kena tkar...tolong la...aq mo on fb..jgn bha ko on fb aq...n tuk pa jgk ko on fb aq???pa jgk yg ko cari???klu dlu eya la...ko jga EVERYTHING sal aq..but now U DON'T DESERVE IT....please...dah la post apa kat wall aq..patut la dia ckp ngan aqsal CEMBURU...aq pelik gak rpanya aq bru bka fb pg ni..cause kmrn sharian aq xbuka fb bab bz sgt ngan fmly ipar aq bwa dorg pi berSHOPPING smpi aq hmpir2 pengsan..huhuhu...aq rindu ngan dia...tp smlm gaduh lg..misunderstanding lg..aq bt keras kpla sgt..huh... tp hri ni aq cba blembut ngan dia dri dia bgn lg...aq xtau la dia tdur ke tak..aq risau keadaan dia skang bab aq tau dia xsht..tp aq nak bt camna..klu la aq blh trbg or ada pintu doreamon..paling logik la klu aq ada duit dah aq beli tiket flight blik sna tuk jga dia..tp aq sndri xmampu...huhuhuhu....rindu sgt ngan dia yg dulu..ngan hubungan kmi yg xpndi nak bgaduh...xda mslh sgt..paling2 ckit pnya hal..bla jmpa dah settle but right now dah la jauh bjuta batu..hbgn kmi xseceria dlu lg..sedih tul aq...i really miss u babe...

berdiam tuk seketika...

me makin binggung ngan u ni..me rsa everything yg me bt or ckp mcm suma xbtul d mata u...me ckp slh, me bgi opinion slh, me diam lgi slh...me nda tau la..yg me tau tiap kali hbs call sma u msti me nangis..me pun nda tau knp..n last night me sakit dada...n me rsa sdah smpi msanya me diamkan diri..klu u nda dpt cntc me jgn la u hairan..me ok ja tu..biar kan ja me..mgkn me mo kasi ubt hati me..mgkn perlu di servis..hahaha...someone was told me that my heart have to overhaul bab me always say "OK JA" but hati me tak ok...me mo jga hati org..hati me blkg crta bla me syg sma org tu..tp bla org tu mcm ignore me..me akn bt hti me happy dgn cara me sendiri...tp mgkn akn bt org yg me syg sdih...drpda me sedih2 smpi dia ckp me bwa dia gaduh...bgus me bt apa yg me rsa blh bt me rsa puas...sorry klu me kasi sakit hati u...biar kan ja...suma pun msh OK....gud morning dear...wish u will happy without me..

wish i get it

 

aq addicted gila ngan bnda alah ni...aq xblh sgt ngan bnda bulu2 ni bab aq ada resdung..tp aq tetap suka bnda ni..cuma aq kena cri yg bulu dia xmcm bulu kucing yg furry sgt2..bab bnda tu akn bt hidung aq gatal n resdung aq akn kuar..dulu aq ada 1 tedyy biru..comel sgt2...dsbbkn aq ni gila wrna bru so teddy pun aq decide tuk beli wrna bru..teddy tu jd unik pda aq bab normally wrna brown n pink..aq bkn jenis girl yg gila pink..teddy tu akn sentiasa ngan aq..aq usung pi mn2 je..smpi kena ckp aq ni bdk2..aq xkisah..smpi kazen aq prnh cko"ko ni klu kawin bkn nangis psal tinggal mak ayh tp sal teddy ko dah xde" aq mampu gelak je time tu..tp aq happy ngan teddy tu bab dia teman aq bla2 msa je..gpun dia xpndi nak sakitkn hti aq cam org lain...tp d sbbkn tedyy di bgi oleh someone yg bt aq SANGAT2 xnak ingt dia n sal teddy tu aq gaduh ngan someone then aq bgi la teddy tu kat org yg aq sndri tau xkn jmpa dia lg..n firasat aq btul..smpi skang aq xjmpa org tu lg..n aq xtau pe nsib teddy tu..aq mmg ada smpn bnda ni kat umh..ada yg bsar ngan kecik yg sederhana dah xde...i wish i get it..impian aq mmg nak beli bnda ni byk2 bla aq dah ada duit...aq suka kumpul bnda2 ni..ntah la aq pun xtau np..xpe la nnti mgkn ada yg mewarisi apa yg aq kumpul slma ni..byk yg kena bg..bla org bgi dan org tu xde bt slh ngan aq, aq akn biarkan brg pembirian dia dpn aq..tp klu org tu bt aq sengsara aq xkn simpan pun brg yg dia bgi...huuhuhu...aq rindu nak teddy...ni gmbr yg aq ambk kat 1 kedai ngan mmbr aq..

murahnya aq d mata mu...

sedih hati aq bla kau melihat aq sprti terlalu murah..aq tau kau knl aq dri hdup ku gelap shingga kau yg mbawa aq kluar dri kgelapan itu walau setelah itu kau biarkan aq tkapai2 sendirian...aq hampir lemas..namun aq cba mnyelamatkan diriku sndri..dan akhirnya msh ada insan yg sanggup mhulurkan tangan untuk mberikan bantuan kpda ku...kau msh bhubung dgn ku..msh bkwn dgn ku..dan aq telah mngajar dan sentiasa m'ingati hati ku yg aq tdak bsama dgn mu lg..sdah ada yg lain yg ingin mjaga ku..walau hnya smentara kerna aq tdk tahu bla dia akn mninggalkan ku sndirian...namun bt msa ini aq bhgia dgn diri nya..kau hnya teman bt ku...dan dia mbuat ku happy...hari ini aq amat terasa dgn kata2 mu...ntah knp...namun ia btul2 mnguris hati ku...biar la...aq tdk smpn dendam pun dgn dirimu...cuma aq msh smpn di hati ni...btapa aq kelihatan hina d mata mu...

everything is ok :)

sorry sayang....smlm me bt u nangis lgi...me dah ckp suma apa yg me rsa patut me ckp...me tau u kecewa...u terasa hti ngan apa yg me post...mgkn psal MR.M...me teriak2 u...psal me mo kasi u ingt..kasi u fhm mcm mn me syg sama u...knp me berubah tiba2...suma yg jadi dlm msa terdekat ni...sebab suma ni cuma ME SAYANG SANGAT-SANGAT NGAN U....me mo u HAPPY...me NDA mo u SEDIH2....n now everything back to normal...yeaaahhhhhhhhh......i'm so HAPPY with that dear...can hear ur laughing..can hear how u cheer up..i LOVE it so much...cause i LOVE u so much...i MISS very2 much syg....u kena jga kesihatan k..me jauh...nda blh mo urus suma tuk u...mo urut u..mo kemas blik u..mo cuci baju u..mo msak sma2 u..mo mbebel sma u...klu me asyik nagging msti u rsa annoying sma me kan syg....nda pa la..2bln lbh ni sma2 la kita sbr k..me RINDU gila sma u syg....take care sayang....

:'(

kau xkn prnh fhm...knp u bt me gni??skang me cuba tsenyum ja tuk u...u blh ketawa sna...sedangkn me kat cni blinangan air mata...ini ka yg u mau???bt air mata me mngalir selalu...u mau bt mcm MR.M bt ka???me telan suma sndri2....u xkn prnh kisah pun klu me merajuk..u xkn terasa pun klu me nda lyn u..bab u sentiasa bz...me tau u keja...tp..np tiap kali u call me..u msti kasi sakit hti me...KENAPA????apa slh me sama u??psal me jauh ka u bt me gni????me kena cover dri kakak...yg me happy ja...tp u tau ka hati ni....brpa hri ni me asyik berendam air mata...baby pun heran knp me nangis....u tau bha kan rsanya sunyi....sdah la teda apa pbnda mo bt...just tggu u blik kja..n bla u blik kja...me cba mo happy2 sma u..tp u suka kasi sakit hti me...bab u tau me ndakan mrh2 sma u..tp me MAKDAL....u tau ka....me diam ja...me tahan hati me spya nda mrh2 sma u..tp me kalah ngan air mata me sndri....u blh ketawa time call...tp dlm msa yg sma air mata me mngalir...u NDA KISAH pun...me bt apa pun..u nda kisah bab u ALWAYS BUSY....me syg sma u...psal me syg...me mkn hati sndri...me nda tau la...bla me mula mo happy mesti me akn brendam air mata dlm diam...me terlampau MANJA ka??me mngada2 ka??me mau perhatian u...u ingt ka???me mau hati....klu u nda mau lyn me..nda pa la..biar me cari hiburan lain yg blh bgi perhatian sma me...tp u jgn mrh...jgn mnyesal...

aq pelik....

knp aq dan dia...ntah apa yg aq rsa aq pun nda tau..aq tau, aq terasa ksunyian tu...tp aq jgk kena atau yg dia sgt bz..lately mmg teda msa dia klu time kja...but aq kena tolak ansur...so aq biarkan ja..apa lgi dlm jarak yg jauh ni..aq semakin pndi bwa hati bila aq kesunyian...aq pun nda tau np..aq RINDU ngan dia...tp...ntah la..aq binggung...aq rsa mo nangis ja..bab aq rsa mcm dia nda peduli aq sdah..ntah np aq rsa camni ah..np dia ada org lain ka??dia ada penganti aq ka...aq pun nda tau...bab instinct aq sllnya btul..mcm msa dia bt slh..aq dpt rsa tp aq percaya ngan dia..ms aq dgr dia mo mngaku pun aq dah janji tidak akn kuarkn air mata tuk dia..tp aq nangis gak....itu tndanya aq mmg syg kan dia..tp aq akn sentiasa bljr tuk lbh bdikari...aq tdk tau apa akn jdi msa dpn..adakah dia akn trus mjaga ku seperti janjinya..atau dia pun sma sja sprti MR.M akn mninggalkan aq slps aq sgt syg akn dia..sedih hati ni tika ini...ntah apa yg terjadi aq jgk tdk fhm...biar la aq berDIAM..kerna itu yg tbaik...aq lbih suka pendam dlm hti ini..klu mlepas biar dcni..mgkn tdk secara trus... :((

its long time already...even xla lma mn pun kan...its about 2 months already.....perasaan itu sdah pun aq letakkan d bwah sna..agar ia tdk mganggu perasaan ku lgi...tp kadang kala ia tetap mganggu ...pa lgi saat kau brada d dpn ku...atau saat kita bhubung...namun ada dia yg cuba mjadi pganti mu...aq sayang akan dia...aq kisah akn dia..dan dia sentiasa bsama ku walau sentiasa bz dgn krja nya...aq sdah mula merengek..namun kadang kala aq sndri mbiarkan dia...saat aq bhubung dgn mu..pasti aq mabaikan dia..namun sllnya saat dia sbuk..kau akn muncul...dan dirimu  sering btanya akn dirinya...aq sndri tdak tahu apa mksd mu...kali terakhir aq mnatap wajah mu...mngalir air mata ini...aq cuba sdaya upaya tuk mnahannya..namun...aq teringt akn kenangan kita..tiap kali kita akn bjauhan...pasti kau akn mberi byk pesanan bt ku..terutamanya jga solat..jgn nakal...n pastu aq salam ko...dan paling aq ingt bla ko bgi forehead kiss...rindu sgt bnda tu...msh ada sms mu yg aq nda buang..walau aq tau dia terluka...ntah knp...aq biarkan ia mjadi bukti kita prnh bsama...semua janji mu msh ku simpan rapi,,,kerna aq sentiasa teringt akn janji mu yg akn mperisterikan aq...msh kah kau ingt..yg kau prnh bkata "abg akn buktikan yg abg nda main2"...so sweet msa tu...aq smpn smpi hri ni...ko ckp ko akn cari jln tuk kita d satukan namun kau jgk yg mninggalkan aq sendrian tkapai2 lemas dgn cinta mu dan rindu yg kau berikan....even skang aq dah jauh dri ko..aq still ingt ma ko..tp aq mo smpn tu perasaan sana dalam...biar lah..aq tau ianya SANGAT sakit...tp msh ada yg syg akn aq..dan msh perlukan perhatian dri aq...walau aq tau yg ianya salah namun...aq tak tahu mngapa kerna perasaan itu sdah lama sbnrnya cuma mmg aq tkt tuk mhadapi knyataannya....biar lamsa mbawa semua ini..dan mngajar aq tuk jdi lbih dewasa...